Dream awake

Lately, I really wish I had more time in life. Yeah, yeah, I hear what you're saying...we all want that, but lately, time has just been flying by way too quickly.

I wake up in the morning, head to work, and by the time I'm done with the day job, it's about 6 at night. Then I have to make dinner and eat. So another hour goes by. Then I have to work out. Another hour or hour and a half goes by. Where do I fit in time for being creative or practicing guitar? Of course, this is all assuming that I am not working on side projects. In that case, it may well mean that I don't get home until 8 or later.

Now I know that there are many of you out there who have far busier schedules, and for that, I applaud you. But I am not envious of you. No, the point of all this is NOT to seek sympathy from the reader, but to just vent about feeling stretched in a million directions and not being able to focus on what I love: music.

I also wish I could blog more regularly about my musical progress, but again, that pesky thing called life has gotten in the way time and again. I haven't had the money (or time) to start up the lessons I know I need (vocal or guitar). I've been so worried about money lately that I just don't have the cushion to spend it on things like lessons. Ultimately, this leads me to feeling like I've stalled again in the progress I'm making towards becoming a professional musician.

If I were this busy and it all had to do with music, I'd be happy. I would be more than happy. I would be ecstatic!!! But it's not. It's doing this or that with little time left over to do anything at all with music. I haven't even attempted to write a new song or work on an unfinished piece in about two weeks...now THAT drives me insane!

It just feels as if someone has come along and put a plug in me...and with no emotional or creative outlet, I'm ready to explode from the ever-building pressure!

To all of us who feel like life is taking us away from our dreams...remember we all fall asleep to dream at some point...but that's not enough. We must dream while we are awake as well.