A weekend to forget

This weekend was definitely not one of my best.

I am often tortured by my own thoughts...and this weekend, I was overcome by my own emotions. And as always, I used these emotions to craft a musical journey into my soul and to shine the light on myself for all to see. You see, that is what I hope to accomplish with my music: I want the world to feel again.

Too often I hear my friends hold back the feelings that I know they must have inside. Society quite honestly disgusts me. We are taught at such a young age that certain things are unacceptable. For men, it might be that we shouldn't cry. Do we really wonder why men perpetrate such violence out of anger and hate when they are given so few emotional avenues to channel such powerful feelings?

I don't believe in internalizing one's emotions. Let it out! Don't you feel so much better when you tell someone how you feel and they nod in understanding? Are we afraid that because we have so few outward examples of emotion that no one else feels the way we do?

I'm tired of holding back. I'm tired of being afraid that no one will understand. Maybe they won't. But it doesn't matter...I can't hold them back any more than I can stop the waves on the beach...

I only want you to know this: if I can awaken an emotion that has been dormant and hidden for years and make you feel my music, then I have succeeded in my vision. I hope you feel and understand the pain, joy, and wonder of life...