Unemployment hangover

Life is pretty good...

Yeah, I know that. I've been pretty lucky my whole life, if you think about it. Most of us have. I support myself. I have a roof over my head. I put food on the table. I have clothes to wear in the morning.

But sometimes, despite all that I have been given and all that I have earned, I just cannot see the good in the day.

Last night was one of those nights where you just feel frustrated. No, not frustrated about interpersonal relationships (or lack thereof), but about how little I feel I've accomplished in the last week. I feel like I haven't worked on my songwriting enough. I feel like I haven't worked on my technical guitar skills or singing enough. I feel like I haven't worked on my website enough. I feel like I haven't been doing much of anything...just little pieces of not much.

I guess it's the unemployment hangover: that period of time after being unemployed where you feel like your day is packed so tightly that you don't feel like you have time to actually do anything. It was so nice to be able to schedule things at any time of the day. It was nice to be able to work on music for 10-12 hours a day. I had the freedom to explore and learn anything I wanted, and I took advantage of that! It was amazing.

But it's gone.

Now I have a "9 to 5" job, along with about three other side projects that I'm working on to eventually get me where I want to be. I know in the end, it could all be worth it, but I want results now, and it's hard to be patient. I guess that's something else I'll have to try and learn in the meantime...as if I had the time.